i am such a horrible person. i did it again. (*looks guilty*)
the year before last was Ivan.
last year were Gary & David
this year is Yang, Hanny and BF
I AM REALLY SORRY
not only did i make a scene, i cried like a baby too.
i felt very emotional.
maybe it's because 9 years ago, i caused my best friend to be paralyzed on a Christmas Eve.the fact that i can drink and party while he sits on a wheelchair forever made me crappy.
Maybe the fact that my company is splitting up and it will be the last time i give my boss2 his christmas gift. After all, i worked with him for at least 6 years.
Maybe i felt that i was taken granted by someone and it affects me alot.
Maybe i have been too tied up with work that dun have time to do many things.. turning alot of outings down but yet pple are forgiving..
i neglect alot of love ones around me..
like my family who dun even get to see me during this period.
the only time i have with my mum is to watch her sleep..
like my bitches who will give me time just to hear me nag and cry while i couldn't even afford to be there when they need me.
i never knew i was so AFRAID of losing our friendship. but i know that our friendship IS STRONG.
like my darling bro who would do anything but forsake me even though i threw my tantrums at him.
like all my other friends who still send me greetings sms despite me giving them the "kite" treatment.
like the rest of the world who chooses to forgive this clumsy gal even though she pisses pple off for the wrong reasons.
"Christmas is about forgiving, giving and sharing."
Thank you for being there for me.
thank you for forgiving me
thank you for giving and sharing your love
i may not be the best friend you can find, but i know u are the best gift i receive from God. Merry Christmas to all who's reading. amen.
