when was the last time i update? could hardly remember.. besides my life is getting so monotonous and i doubt anyone would be keen to find out more.

been so called "single" for the past close to 5 months.. was supposed to "see the light" and head for the right direction so that my life would be happier.

unfortunately, i dun see that happening.. i seem to be constantly falling into the grey area where i am neither not moving forward nor taking a step back.. i am just STUCK. the feeling is like quicksand. sinking down. maybe not in a very fast motion but definely sinking..

i didn't regret making the decision to call it quits because i would probably end up in a worse situation if i didn't voice out.

perhaps it would have been easier to walk away if the drama is about him abusing me or cheating behind my back. the issue i have is much worse than this! and i really have no idea how to solve it.. to stay or to leave? to try or to give up? so confusing...

i hate this feeling.. when can i snap out of this... arghh...