this is really bad. i mean we all know that the economy crisis has already hit hard..

and it has arrived at my doorsteps. my client called this morning that they are planning to put the project on shelf till further instructions from their upper management..

hopefully by later quarter next year.. which means all the hard work for the past few months is only justified after that.. which means my fat bonus is going into the lokangs.. which means i am free till chinese new year unless there's a miracle.

next bad news is my other client is doing their reinstatement job. which means we have a project. but it's the LAST project cox they are closing the regional office in Singapore. And that's my 2nd client winding up their office in Singapore within 3 months..

and heard news that a friend "volunteer" to leave his job without his bonus else he will be asked to leave for "poor performance". that poor fellow slogged hard to his current position, trained in US and the only thing he could do is to leave in peace since his renowned Japanese restaurant has already closed the US branch. and news of them closing up more branches in Singapore is already on the way.

what else can i say? no matter how bad it is, i have to stay on. regardless. i am so going to endure.

i am having monday blues..

had to drag myself to work this morning..

despite changing like 9876543210 times, i still feel like a buffalo..

my eyes are almost half closed as i type.. the workload has piled up but i am just so watching it rather than doing it..

fact that chele and her hubby are in japan visiting zhu makes me wish that i am on a holiday too..

maybe i should take a nap in the office and dream for awhile..

uncommon beauty

isn't it irony that life can be strong but fragile when shaken (vice versa)?

it's just like you need water to survive but it can also drown you to death.

i watched a documentary yesterday. i shudder and could hardly sit thru it.. i was going : "oh my god.... arghh... heartache..." throughout the entire show..

it is about this malaysian lady who was attacked by a jealous admirer who couldn't get her attention. she was a single mother who worked as a night hostress to raise her son.

the sick man attacked her with a chopper slashing her more than 22 times all over her face, head and body. it was just pure smeared blood and flesh everywhere. and yet that animal did not stop. he poured boiling water on her to watch her suffer in cruxifying pain..

the doctors could do almost nothing to save her from rotting away.. the infections were so bad that maggots eating her right eye..her face was multilated beyond how a human could look..

with barely a 30% chance of survival, it was a miracle that she managed to go through the ordeal. the journey of recovery was worse than the darkest hell.

But she didn't die. She refused to die. This extraordinary woman lives to inspire us, and tell the world, proudly, in her own words, "I still celebrate the fact that I am alive".
her life will no longer be the same. just like her face. but she found new courage to not just live, but exploit her misfortune to help others. she gave talks and even wrote a book called: "uncommon beauty"

it's so horrifying to even imagine what's she's gone through...
using the name of love, he tortured and destroy someone that he proclaims he admires..
for jealousy, he turned himself into a beast..

isn't it irony how one yearns for love but will turn into a monster when not given?

p/s: if i am ever murdered, u know who's the main suspect...