there are times when u feel down and lousy..

i keep getting these times recently..

i felt so f*cked when i forgot to buy medication for my mum.

i felt so f*cked when i didn't go church.

i felt so f*cked when my grandma couldn't recognised me.

i felt so f*cked when i should have clean my room but i choose to hide.

didn't really feel like going to work but didn't have a choice.

didn't feel like doing anything but hide.

i slept till my head hurts more than my heart..

where is my rainbow after the rain?

wedding party at rochester park

Round 2 of wedding celebration: Rochester Park.

lovely place with plenty of food and wine.
at least not a typical banquet where it's more relaxing.

he even got polarid cameras to keep the guest entertained while waiting..

i was told to reach early so that i could help out at the reception again.

but they apparently didn't need my help cox the reception was over flow with helpers.

chele was late as usual and didn't make her appearance till food was served!

so i tot maybe i could start eating coz i was starving!!

but dinner wasn't served till late.. just like a typical banquet..

so while waiting, the nice waiteress keep offering me drinks... and more drinks..

i had almost a bottle of white on my own before dinner was served!


My elder sis and bro in law. small fart didn't tag along cox it was an "adult affair"


i used to tag along when my cuzie erik goes clubbing with his friends. and that's how my bro in law got to know my sis too. hehehe. after 8 years before i get to see them again!

George. one of the brothers that used to "take care" of me. my godma's god son. hhmmm.. that makes him my god bro?


Chele and her beau. going to be the new member in our family on 27th Dec. and he knows i will be guarding the gate so he's extremly nice to me!

Typical pose with my favourite female cuzie chele! the one that speaks in japanese when she's drunk!
Erik's mum aka my "godma". alot of pple says that i looked like her more than my mum. and for her age, her figure is to kill!. and she swears by YOGA! i doubt i can do yoga but i am pretty sure she is what i wana be when i grow older!!

shh..... no freaky japanese when u are drunk!

long live cuzzies forever!! *if only zippy is here...

wedding on friday the 13th!

introducing my favourite male and female cuzzies: Michele and Erik

one is younger by 2 years (though my grandma insist she is older..hahaha)

one is older by 1 year.

BOTH are getting married this year.... more like one had already started his tan tan life..

attended Erik's wedding on 13th June 2008 (friday the 13th!!!) & 14th June 2008.

yes he had like 2 days of celebration with the typical chinese banquet on 13th and a friends party on 14th.

i guess he would rather choose to have more fun with his friends and colleagues separately and yet pacify the parents with the banquet for the family and relatives.

me, being the relative and the hip cuzzie was invited for both!

thanks to erik, who insist that his banquet comes with a "shanghai night" theme. and for the sake of my favourite male cuzie, i went to the extreme of going for a "makeover" to suit the theme!

the not completed spize girls (from left: michele, apes, celindra and zippy)

different pple just have different looks when wearing cheongsam. ..

chele freaking look like some chun li waitress and i look like those 1960s shanghai mamasan/ songstress!

but my elder sis apparently still looking younger and hot mama of one!

it would have been completed if zippy had wore a cheongsam which she insist that rather not else she would like a "jin gang" barbie..

chele's wedding coming up on 27th Dec.. No themes please!

Chele was trying her luck to get some fluffy fans to do some gimmicks just for erik. she touched down on the actual day and went over to chinatown to search high and low for it! in the end she managed to get 4 red fans with the words xi on them.

4 red fans from chinatown: $20

summons for double yellow line in barely 10 mins for these fans: $50 (ahahaha)

efforts made for this wedding: priceless!

For the new tans tans: it takes alot to be walking hand in hand for the rest of your lives..

so better treat her like u never before and dun take her for granted

or ma ma will punch u again!

May God bless you both with a blissful and happy marriage.. welcome to our family biao sao!

maybe

i choose to walk away.

from a step to marriage to a path that i decided that i would like to walk on my own for a while.

not because that he is not good enough for me.

he has never failed to make me laugh.

he has never stopped loving me.

it's just me who has changed.

perhaps i didn't have enough faith.

perhaps i didn't have enough hope.

perhaps i didn't have enough love.

perhaps i didn't have the courage and the strength to walk thru it cox i was hurt along the way and the wound is too deep to recover for now.

perhaps my heart has closed.

perhaps my heart has changed.

YES IT HURTS

i supposed this blog will suddenly become the "most visited" blog because of what happen to us recently..

to the rest of the pple who' s asking:

YES. i am taking a break from my current relationship with my bf.

YES we are facing issues here.

YES it hurts alot for the both of us.

So please stop asking him. let him have a peace of mind. when he is ready to talk, he will approach you and pour out his feelings.

And beng. the poor fellow has to take care of both side plus pple trying to get the full story.

there was no blame in any of the above. between kev and me, we are grateful that there are so many pple who are concern. it means that we have been popular and well- loved. but please give him the space and continue to shower him with the love and care u guys have. be there for him. dun be there cox u want to hear stories.

my younger sis told me this and i find it meaningful:

Search for serenity to accept the things we cannot change

seek the courage to change the things that we can

find the wisdom to know the difference.

faith, hope and love is what that will keep us strong.

have you ever?

* Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so hard
You can't sleep at night
Have ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, Have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Repeat *]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care


What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta do to get your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world'
Coz baby I can't sleep